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Usually when I fail to blog regularly, it's because my life is good. Even keel, uneventful, etc. And those are good pauses. This time, I'm not sure. Well, actually I'm positive that it's not one of those breaks. You see, I've been cheating. I've bee using twitter more and more for my stream of consciousness musing. The good, the bad and the ugly, too. Now, I'm not sure if this poses the best solution. From time to time, I've even reverted to my flickr account for a way to receive feedback in a better/easier way and to more readily limit the scope of those who could read what I wanted to share. Today is a good day, generally. I don't really have any man problems (thank goodness) right now. Recently, I have, but I've come to reason that it's not worth the heartache and mental deraillement to pick apart. Past is past. Done, ended. Sure, every so often the past rears its ugly head and I muse for a bit. Mourn the passing of an infatuation cut short of love. But I guess that's just the way things fall into place. I'm subject to my moods. the depths of despair, elation to the point of overdoing it. I get emotion hangovers if I climb too high. I still have my vices, though. I think I may handle them better or at the least, understand them a bit better now. I fall fast and hard for guys who flatter and pay attention to me (for a split second). They are also usually the guys for whom true attachment is impossible. I give people the benefit of the doubt more often than not and I get crushed when they turn out to be jerks. at least I know that I can be in a relationship. one that gives and takes. on where we're both in it for the same reasons. yeah yeah, I know, I'm single now, and the relationship ended. But it ended on it's own terms and wasn't this big huge uprising of emotion and angst and disappointment. It just wasn't meant to be. My life, for the most part, is good. A bit full of drama and change of pace, but still good. I went to Abu Dhabi for work, 
San Francisco for family, Greece for a wedding,  
Baton Rouge for family, 
New York for friends 
and Nova Scotia for family. 
I still have trips to Nashville, South Bend, and Paris, perhaps even Madison left for this year. Still need to get tickets for SBN and get a place to stay in paris. My sister's host family may or may not be welcoming me into their home, but I hope they do because they're right in the center of paris. she totally lucked out! Ah, and my major reason for this. To share some of my knitting adventures! My friend, Tanis, dyes yarn. I've used it for some projects and I love it. So I decided to do one big giant heirloom piece: a blanket for my bed. I keep thinking about how to arrange the colors since it took a few days to come to a final color choice, and I had her dye me a special chartreuse (because it completes my color palette), now it's about how to arrange 9 colors with 9 hexagons each in a 9x9 grid (closest packing) 9 columns of 9 hexes each a rainbow?  a pattern?  random? 
semi-random?   colorblock?
stripes?
repeats?
no repeats? I've got time, There's a lot of time that it will take since I've only made 15/81 and I haven't yet received the rest of the yarn.  
And yes, I did actually write this post out before committing it to blog. I was considering not just blogging it, but sending it in letter form to a few of you. Just because it's nice to receive mail. (heart) Katie!
underline PS. before I forget. I still haven't cut my hair. It's not quite high school length but it's getting there. I can't believe I used to always have this mop. It gets so heavy, but it seems to pouf out less than it used to. Takes forever to dry.
looking back - thinking ahead
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